Restless Expectancy

Restlessness pervades my body, my mind...the expectancy of what is to come makes me antsy to get to that place. I see the road between where I am now and where I will be, but the journey causes this restlessness. It's all part of the plan, it's all happening in it's time. I trust that. I trust God. I trust the value He places in me and the talents and abilities He has lain deep inside of me before I ever breathed my first breath. "...she is worth far more than rubies." Proverbs 31:10b

I continue to dream of that day...that day that I am walking fully as the person He created me to be. To someday measure up to and exceed the expectations of friends and family...and of myself. His expectations are endless. His promises are concrete. His desires for my life are better and more rapturous than anything I can ever even imagine. I try to dream big dreams, and yet my dreams are so small in comparison to His dreams. I have watched as He has removed those who would cause my gaze to waiver, as He has closed doors on things that were never meant to be. As He has told me "No, child!" over and over again. All because He loves me so much, He doesn't want me to settle for less than His best for my life. So that when He blesses me, it will overflow and pour out onto others. So that when it pours out onto others, it will overflow in them and pour out onto still others. A river that has no beginning and no end...that has a wellspring that never runs dry. This is His desire for each of us. Why do we continually settle for less than what He wants for us? Why do we willingly take second place to this life, when He wants us to be first in this life? To lead by the example He has set before us.

Lord, help me to see the value you see in me. Help me to help others see the value you see in them. Help each of us to see that our meager offerings can be so much more, if we will just let go of it all, and allow you to be in complete control. Help us to see our lives through your eyes, dear Lord. Help us to dream our dreams through your dreams. Help us to walk the path, however long, however short, that you have set before us. Open our hearts, minds, and souls to all that you have planned for us. In Jesus' name, amen!